Reality

people used to said dat when u r working, there's no time to enjoy..or no life
yup..lesser time to enjoy make fun with frens
but this is the real life..i hav reached da destination for my education.dis is wat we all struggling for before..hope i can do it with heart coz i dont hav da heart of working now...

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...........tired.but.donno wat the best.need to accept it...= =

what "he" said

last nite he said--
"from morning till night, may your birthday be bright..."
ok. so now..the brightness is fading away as the nite came by.

hate discussing wit him as he feels asleep..very unsensitive..mean.
i know im not rich as he is..dont look down on me.im trying to be there at where "u"..and always trying."u"just dont appreciate it.this is all i hav..undying hopes..why cant you jus APPRECIATE. u da one who needs the bright and the light..not me

moving a car..hahahaha

yuppy..appa yeapp yeapp..

first time after 3 years of not "touching" the "stereng"..i made the car move again.=)
bit nerves at first but...the next thing is very exciting...ohh forgot to mention,,jus an auto car..hahahaa

wat ever la..jnji epy,...kn kn???jgn langgar bus lg yerk..=p


***when can i hav my own car??a white one....someday.

another trial

Just came back from perak yesterday..and the day after tmoro i hav to be on the road again..for another trial to be employed..=(..actually it's jus a training, a month working skill training back in JB.It will start in august..so i'll be in utm for the whole puasa...if im accepted la..lots of my money has gone for the interviews..my time,my effort and HOPE..still no sign of brighter future-

i dont know what GOD hav plan for me..i still wish for the best..

..reality bites. Yes it does sometime.

The differences Between Us

i dont fit into ur world...

ur family, ur frens, ur environment

not comfortable i guess

but, at least i hope for one thing

i fit in ur heart

but..

it also not a solid assure.

life unexpected

what do i expect for??

i made my plan..but it's back to ALLAH to give " the approval"

what ever the "plan" You have for me, i wish it's a destiny to make me a wiser follower of ISLAM

i'm no good.never enough to settle.

Tomorrow..tomorrow and tomorrow

Another 5 days and i'll be completely becoming a two months-jobless-girl~sounds dats my hope is getting fade away..i dont know anymore.is it real dat my destiny is not to be an engineer??huhh~~dats is out of my control,none of my plan is working well..know i start to love to be back in class once again..this monday im going to send an application for fellowship.with dat, im going to be a lecturer in ump,and im able to continue my dream to hav a master degree at unsw...and now i keep my hope once again on it..Allah..if that is my destiny..pls make it easy for me,,make all the application processes going smoothly..hopefully,insyAllah..

last few days, i heard a speech by Oprah Winfrey on a video in Youtube..the speech was very good..very inspiring..she did said that "if you not comfortable with something..not really love to do something..than dont settle yet..find what u really want in your life"..and i realized that all i want is dat i want to inspire people..i want to help them to live a better life and have a better hope for their future..but how im going to do that?????i dont think dat im able to do dis if i choose to be an engineer..still,,dun know~