Need really to luv myself more than i could love others.
all these while, i loves some one more than myself.everything i do,everywhere i go, i jus hope im doing it, being there with you. for me..dat anything wit u is da best, happiest moments.u r in every of my plan.but i just realized, u not feel da same.
i still trust u and want to trust u, but reality is hurt.
please wake up, myself.he will not always be there and want to be there for you.
afterall, its between Allah and me.He never leave me. you are just a person, which i need to believe for 99% only. there's always 1% possiblity for you to just turn off.
...position, authority, wealthy, superiority, and all other "state of life" which put us, sometimes above the others is given to 'test' ourself, in return.
few months in da "real world", i hav had already seen colors of life and people. to be someone below the others, and to "watch" and "listen" others be above the other people is a painful experience. i realised dat sometime, as a human somehow we jus kind of forget to analyse our own steps, and words before or at worst, after we did/said it.
i realised and want others to aware dat wat ever job which gives "power" to us over the others, is not really mean dat we can treat them as we want. this "power" never, on its on to declare that u are gud compared to people under ur authority. and most of that "power" is jus given to make sumthing working, not really is ur own power. In short, u are da representative which hiding behind dat power.
problems with us, human..you and me..we easy to feel proud on small thing dat we hav achieved or given to us. we make our own intepretation dat we hav already above da other, gud enuf to tease and belittle others.
these dramas, just really make me laughs inside, and wanna cry at da same time. Wat a world!..yeayh...wat a world.
a reminder for me..and you..and others:
never lose our humanity, rasional judgement, and manners whenever we are up at da top or down at bottom. Do not make our own words and steps show how "badly" we are inside. you what, our verbal and non-verbal comm. are enuf to reflect who we are inside. be someone with brain.
................................its much more easier to be clever, but not wiser person.
"Tak susah untuk jadi bijak, tapi tak ramai yang dapat jadi bijakSANA"